It's not about me.

I was complicated living in complications;
though I yearn to be simple;
I simply couldn't;
it was too complicated.

One day I found someone;
the simplest person I ever met.
Simple things he taught me;
Simple things he made me believe in;

What I simply couldn’t now I simply can;
life is simple when it’s not about me.
I am ordinary made extraordinarily;
Because of the one inside of me.

Some has much but never give thanks;
Some has little but never complain.
May I give thanks in all circumstances;
Counting blessings one by one.

Have you ever before experienced this? Standing still. Eyes closed. And enjoy just the wind and the intimacy it brings as it passes your skin. And you can feel those tiny hair above being tossed around, back and forth, not vigoriously but gently, not hastily but in its own pace, not determined by anyone.

The breeze doesn't have much to offer, only hoping that it can sweep away some pressures off troubling hearts, refresh some tiring souls, and then it leaves, looking to reach another. It expects nothing in return.

I experienced exactly it, today. Wave after wave it approaches and leaves, while I listen to the whispering song it brings to my ears.

Again, it's about thanksgiving. I thank you my Lord, to be with me.

1. The fog is over, and vision regained. www.curharist.blogspot.com is accessible once again from a small room in an might-be-blown-down-soon apartment in a BIG city called Shanghai. So surprised that it's been blocked for only a few days. Well, it just makes me believe that there's power in giving thanks. WOW. Thanks, God. It feels quite weird to just post stuff from blogger and cannot see how it looks like on the real page ya' know.


2. Working life isn't easy at all. Learning how to handle pressure can be quite a tiring process. But still, I wanna thank God for forcing me to trust in Him. It's really when you don't know how to do certain stuff, and you admit to God and ask for help, and there you will find God's grace.


3. Housemate's recovering. I saw him in the living room the moment I stepped into the house from work. He doesn't look like dying definitely. (",) "Hey, thanks Chris for being there yesterday!" "Nah, I didn't do much." "Yes, you did." "Maybe just a little." *felt quite sweet inside* =) Thank God that he's still alive, else I don't know what will happen to me. HA.
   

1. HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY to mommy Bessie! I really wanna thank God for my mom. She's the greatest women in my heart. I can't help but recalling all the hardship that we went through together when I was still young, even before I could imagine I would have two cute sisters (coming along the way). We were really poor then. I remembered the best meal I ever had during my childhood was 2 fried eggs with baked beans, that was on my sixth birthday. Mum would say, "Xi4 wai3, xi4 wai3..." which means 'pitiful' in FuChao. I didn't understand what it means back then, so happy and satisfied with my eggs and beans. But now I understand that mommy was trying her best to provide for me. "I'm so proud of you, mommy neo!" Thank God for her. I hope she'll be happy the rest of her life. And to all the great moms out there, Happy Mother's Day, everyday.


2. "Chris! Help!" Suddenly, in the middle of the service, my housemate has a severe pain in his neck. While I was trying to pray for healing, he said he can't take it anymore, he needs to go to the hospital. So we went. Thank God he's better now, resting upstairs. Interestingly, he actually described the pain as, "I felt like dying!" He never ever came close to thinking about death before that incident, he said. Yeah, usually young people like us don't. It's pretty deep ya' know. Yet, it is very practical to think about death. What would you think about death? To me, death + salvation = hope in eternity. Thank God that he ensured to us peace though this hope. Receive Jesus, if you have not.
   

1. www.blogger.com still works. Even though neither can I access http://curharist.blogspot.com nor http://pnwsongs.blogspot.com, I'm glad that I'm still able to post stuff through www.blogger.com. I'm trying to make it a point to count my blessings one by one each and everyday. It somehow gives the day a good end, doesn't care how bad the day might be. I thought that this would be a good way to encourage myself, ya' know. After blogging, I would say to myself, "Hey, today's not bad... He still there, watching..."


2. I'm very happy to see my cell group today. We shared food, yummy... stories from our May hols... and sang songs together. Some of us aren't feeling very well though, one has cough, another has spinal pain, the another down with flu at home. Doesn't sound very good right? Not to me either. But in some ways, I felt that people are starting to feel belonged here. We have people sharing their joy and also their problems and sufferings. We can openly do that here because it's safe. God provided the security, of course, and the promise of healing as well.


3. "Sorry, make way please, (revival) coming through..." I've heard good reports from my beloved wife-to-be that some missionary testified that some hundreds of (pastor lim) - ya know right? translate into chi then eng - came to Christ in a certain place in Malaysia. The reason wasn't because somebody preached to them, but they have (dream)ed about salvation and God himself spoke to them. How cool is that! I'm so excited after hearing this. And our nation really needs God. So many bad things are happening around us. As I walk in the streets of JB, crippled beggers everywhere. In newspapers, ridiculous crimes everyday. So many lost young people from broken homes. "Dear God, please come, I know you're still there, watching..."

1. Thank God for His great strength that was like a big tree holding every single leaves together, preventing it from falling apart. Sleeping late produced a drowsy me, but was sustained.
2. Eating fried rice for lunch and daydreaming together with a best friend.
3. 3 different people gave me 3 different kinds of chocolate bars. Haha.
4. My new electric guitar. Finally! The second guitar of my life! A childhood dream fulfilled during adulthood.
   

Just wanna give thanks...

1. Safe flight back to Shanghai. There's a few time turbulence did come along and my heart sank with the little aircraft, but I knew in my heart that I'd be fine cos' the still small voice in me said so.
   
2. A great company to work in. In it, a great boss, great colleagues, unending supply of bubble tea every afternoon. So many times I'm faced with situations which challenged my pride, courage, faith, thought and EQ. Truly a humbling experience.
   
3. Dinner. A successful first-time experience of making egg sandwiches. Ingredient: bread, eggs, cucumber, butter, salt and pepper.